When I was 17 I collided with a goalie, connecting collar bone to foot, and hit the ground knowing, something in the top of my right foot wasn’t right. I took my cleat off and got to the sideline. Feeling the frustration you feel, when you let your team down, and even worse yourself. When the game ended, I headed to the hospital with my family. Unable to find any broken bones, I was wrapped up, iced and given crutches for the next few weeks.
I remember that pain that echo’d up my whole body when I received a pass my first practice back. I ran with this awkward stride, couldn’t find my sprint, and was ultimately so frustrated I almost cried. There is no feat like a physical defeat, when your memory knows what to do, but your body doesn’t have the power to execute.
A couple hours later practice ended, and as the rest of my team left to go home, I walked to the practice field to get reacquainted with my feet. After a couple hours of sprints and laterals, an assistant coach came up to me and said “What are you doing? Are you done running yet?” It wasn’t until someone else broke my focus that I woke up. It had been an hour or so, and when reality set in I almost collapsed. “I’m trying to get back” I said. He chucked, packed and moved on.
I look back on that moment in my life, not to take pride in anything other than knowing what capacity I have for wanting something so badly. You don’t know hungry until you can’t feed yourself right?
I entered into a new chapter in my life this week, and I can honestly say, I haven’t been this inspired, this hungry and this determined in a long time. I feel like myself these days, and that is a good thing. I’m motivated, not only by the weight of the opportunity that is in front of me, but also by the idea that I could fail. I’ve never wanted anything more that to be successful at the stage in my life I am currently in, and the gravity of my reality has hit me like a bus. I’ll tell you right now I want it. The best advice I received this week from a new acquaintance was: “Don’t F*ing Wait”… Here’s to not waiting.
Some sight’s and sounds to light a fire.
Collect: Life is a team sport. Never forget that part.
Execute: How bad do you want it?